“God will fulfill His purpose for me”.
This has been a tough one this year especially for me. I think it has so much to do with having blind faith. I tend to want to see my purpose and witness the results of my efforts. But that is not always possible. We may never know how we have influenced people. Our good deeds my go unnoticed. So I try to have faith and know that God can see and knows everything.
Ps.139:16-18 ” …In your book they were all written the days that were ordained for me. When as yet there was not one of them. How precious also are your thoughts to me O God! How vast is the sum of them. If I should count them they would outnumber the sand. When I awake, I am still with you.”
I need to relax and find comfort and rest in these words. I believe that God’s purpose for my life is beyond my understanding. I have found myself questioning God. I have ask Him…Why am I doing this job? What good can come from this? Why am I going through this hard time? I have felt sidelined, off track, rejected, unappreciated, and completely in the dark as to my purpose and direction. I have felt like I was backed into a corner and with no other decision to make but the one in front of me. Recently I have made the only decision I could make and it puts me back to square one! I am not sure why I ever left. But here I am. And I may never know. I may never know how many lives I touch. For me…helping people is a big part of my life. I am thinking about that ripple affect we have in this world. We can possibly see the start of the ripple…but it travels out of sight and we never know who it touches or where it ends.