“That’s When I Find You”

I have had a tough week with my asthma and allergies.  It seems that I had an attack or two every day. Asthma makes you appreciate each breath you are able to take.  During this very hard time, I was also faced with month end business at work. I have been a manager long enough to plan for month end at the beginning of each month. I map out what money we need to make each day, and find a motivating theme to keep the troops heading in the direction of our goals. We sometimes are focusing hourly to reach our month end goals. As a result of our focus and team work…we made our quota!

So as I was celebrating the ending of a great month and driving my hour commute home…I realized that the grass along the freeway had been mowed the entire duration of my trip. Freshly mowed grass sends my asthma into hyper drive.

When I got home…I had a full blown asthma attack that got me focusing on one breath at a time. One breath at a time is part of what it takes to keep a person alive. During the attack I am trying to calm down and breathe as deep as possible…not knowing if I am going to pass out or die on the spot.

No one was home to help me. It didn’t get to the point of needing to dial 911, but that would have been a tough feat to pull off. I kept talking to God…knowing He was right there beside me. During these attacks I am coughing continually which eventually upsets my stomach. The whole ordeal is so dramatic. When I finally am able to get in control…the silence and peace is like arms of comfort around me.

I thank God for helping me through and ask Him to please heal me from this disease. I question Him as to why He hasn’t healed me? I pray that I will accept my illness and be able to deal with the discomfort it causes me. Then this song comes to my mind… ”

Things have gotten crazy, and I have to admit that I’m flying down life’s highway and I’m not used to it. There are days when I am weary and can barely stand my ground.

There are days when I am tempted to completely break down. But when I’ve got a bridge to cross there’s a choice to be made. I’ve learned to seek some solitude, I’ve learned to seek your grace.

And that’s when I find you waiting for me in the stillness of the moment, spend down on my knees. Looking up to Heaven for your wisdom and truth.

That’s when I find you Lord and that’s when I find you.

There have been some moments that have torn me apart. Seems there’s always something playing tricks on my heart. I have felt the pain of failure, when the trying is too much. But I have felt your arms around me as they lifted me up.

And when I’ve got a bridge to cross there’s a choice to be made. I’ve learned to seek some solitude, I’ve learned to seek your grace. That’s when I find you waiting for me in the stillness of a moment, spent down on my knees, looking up to Heaven for your wisdom and truth.

That’s when I find you Lord, and that’s when I find you”

words and music by Wendi Joy Green.  Sung by the band known as Sierra.

We can always find the Lord when we need Him. He is never far away.

As for God…He never loses us!